• Grief

    Pictures

    January 31, 2024 - By 

    Sometimes when I look at a picture of Alec, I feel joy. Joy in who he was, joy in the times I spent with him, joy that I was his mom. Other times I feel pain. The pain of missing him, pain in wishing he was here with me, pain…

  • Grief

    The weight of grief

    January 8, 2024 - By 

    Grief is so heavy. Sometimes I feel it bearing against my chest. Other times its a hundred pounds on my shoulders. Underneath it there is a hole in my heart left by the loss of Alec. It’s a hole only he can fill so I will live with it the…

  • Letters to Alec

    Never forget

    November 13, 2023 - By 

    I worry I’ll forget your face. But I wake up every day and remember it perfectly. I worry I’ll forget your voice. But I recall it clearly and beautifully. I worry I’ll forget how your hugs felt. But I imagine their warmth so fully.

  • Inspiration

    I Run

    October 30, 2023 - By 

    I run for AlecI run for the heartache I bear when I miss himI run for all the cherished memories I have with himI run to feel him by my sideI run to fight on – because that’s what Alec would want me to doI run for the immense love…

  • Inspiration

    The Power of Both

    June 24, 2023 - By 

    365 days since I’ve seen your smile365 days since I’ve heard your laugh365 days since I’ve hugged your neck365 days since I heard you say I love you365 days since I tried to save your life365 days of you dancing with the angels365 days of you making everyone laugh in…