I worry I’ll forget your face. But I wake up every day and remember it perfectly. I worry I’ll forget your voice. But I recall it clearly and beautifully. I worry I’ll forget how your hugs felt. But I imagine their warmth so fully.
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This is me – swimming the channel of life, just trying to stay afloat, battling the weight of my grief and trauma with every stroke.
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I started loving you when God put you in my belly. And I’ll never stop.I loved you when I found out I was having a boy.I loved you when I held you in the NICU.I loved you when I did physical therapy with you.I loved you when you fell from…
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Sometimes when I look at a picture of Alec, I feel joy. Joy in who he was, joy in the times I spent with him, joy that I was his mom. Other times I feel pain. The pain of missing him, pain in wishing he was here with me, pain…
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Grief is so heavy. Sometimes I feel it bearing against my chest. Other times its a hundred pounds on my shoulders. Underneath it there is a hole in my heart left by the loss of Alec. It’s a hole only he can fill so I will live with it the…
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I run for AlecI run for the heartache I bear when I miss himI run for all the cherished memories I have with himI run to feel him by my sideI run to fight on – because that’s what Alec would want me to doI run for the immense love…
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365 days since I’ve seen your smile365 days since I’ve heard your laugh365 days since I’ve hugged your neck365 days since I heard you say I love you365 days since I tried to save your life365 days of you dancing with the angels365 days of you making everyone laugh in…